Mixed Signals - February 3, 2010 -

Well, I have had a very strange day indeed. I went to the doctor, got weighed and was pleasantly surprised at a being 2-pounds less than the last time I weighed a few weeks ago. Then I had to go to the local Mayflower grocery store/pharmacy where there was a little blond girl that I must admit seemed slow due to “redneckism”. I would guess that she was about 6… long blond pigtails… being held by her mother. When the mother put her down to pay for their drugs, she threw a minor fit and then put her back to the counter and began to stare at me. I smiled politely until the length of eye contact became uncomfortable. I looked elsewhere until the girl pointed her finger at me and said “look maw, she is fat.” The mom never acknowledged her daughter’s voice. I would block my little retardo out too.

Hhmmm… I told the old man standing next to me, “wow, what a boost to my confidence.” He chuckled uncomfortably, however I wasn’t satisfied that he wasn’t confirming that I wasn’t so I followed up with ”I just went to the doctor and got weighed, I was feeling pretty good about it.” He chuckled uncomfortably some more so I gave up and put it in the category of this is why I don’t associate with the LowLanders of Mayflower.

I went to pick up lunch for me and the boss before heading back to work. The male cashier was chatting me up and then commented on my cool wedding band. Which, HELLO, you commenting on my wedding band is an obvious sign that you were checking out my marital status. Now here is someone that can appreciate my weight…. but I am very taken. 

I’ve made excuse after excuse to not be exercising and I just can’t find the motivation to do anything. I am very tired of the cold weather and want to start running again. I think in April, while I’m living in Conway waiting for the new house to be ready, I will join the 24 hour 10-Fitness. It’s just $10 a month with no contracts. They have showers so I can go workout in the morning, get ready for work and head to LR. March 1st is the Conway running clinic that I will be participating in as well so if I can just make it through this month, exercising 3 times a week, I will be just fine.

Wish today was Friday!!!

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Do I Even Remember How To Do This? - January 26, 2010 -

Yes, it’s been forever since I’ve paid any attention to my blog. I apologize and I don’t know that this entry will offer much insight on weightloss or exercising  but rather a run down of everything that has been going on over the past month. Christmas happened, New Year’s happened, a New Year’s Day below freezing yard sale happened, a new home purchase, and a complete shift in mentality of being on a budget again.

I’ve been through stages of being so upset, nervous, stressed out that I couldn’t eat which was certainly no negative on the weightloss front. I am certainly happy that it wasn’t the opposite with me stuffing my face with everything in sight to “make things better.” I haven’t been exercising regularly and as much as it disappoints me in the short term, I will not be Jazzercising come Feb 1. Until the dust settles on everything, I just didn’t have the time or money to keep going. I’ve been trying to get into running with friends but that hasn’t really panned out too much yet. I know when the warm weather comes, we will all be able to coordinate better because who has “other plans” at 6:00 am? Ha!

I have a work birthday potluck two weeks after the last birthday potluck two weeks after the Christmas potluck party. Seriously??? Who can potluck this much! Next time, I’m calling in potluck sick… because I’m sick of them! I’m taking pistachio parfaits of sorts. I don’t know at this point if it will even be edible because I got home tonight and didn’t have a key ingredient. I think it was my subconscious that sabotaged me. I thought I had a stick of cream cheese in the fridge but I don’t. So here is the recipe:

1 pkg pistachio pudding (made like directions with 2 cups milk)
1 cup powdered sugar
8 oz cool whip
8oz cream cheese
Pecan shortbread cookies, crumbled

Mix pudding according to package. Mix cream cheese, cool whip and powdered sugar together. Layer pudding, cool whip and cookie crumbles twice.

And here is how I made it…

2 pkg pistachio pudding (made with almond milk and soymilk)
16 oz cool whip light
1 cup powdered sugar
Pecan shortbread cookies, crumbled

Hehehe… the pudding is a little thick because of the special milk. The cool whip sans the cream cheese mixed togther with the powdered sugar made marshmallow paste basically. Like I said, not sure if it is edible but I’m taking it anyway. Maybe if it tastes horrible, I won’t  be invited to the next one… even though it is setup outside my office everytime!

I’ve been slowly packing… a couple boxes every other night. I keep thinking that the more I pack and stack in the spare bedroom, the cleaner my house will look but it is not working according to plan. More stuff seems to be accumulating! Ugh!

I don’t have any big tips or motivation at the moment because I’m just trying to go day to day. I haven’t been focused on food or exercise in the least but I have been maintaining which leaves me very pleased with myself. I can believe that the changes I have made in my life over the past years have been true life changes. But I will never fool myself into thinking that I don’t have to try as hard. I know that I must find a way to keep exercise a priority in my life or the weight will begin to creep back up. But I am very happy to have the ability to go through this stressful time and not make it a priority without gaining 50 pounds!

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Small Successes - December 3, 2009 -

I went and worked out again this morning after another episode of having to pull my blanket “from my cold, dead hands”. Not a pretty site… I think my muscles are just full of sludge pre-9 am so I sit mindlessly on the couch eating cereal thinking of putting my workout clothes on before rushing to brush my teeth and hit the cold weather outside. I may take up my grade school habit of wearing next day’s clothes to bed so you have that much less to do in the morning and can sleep those extra few minutes. I read some tips in a magazine to help with morning workouts and it mentioned to have a short snooze time, 5 minutes or less, and to only use it once. The short snooze time apparently doesn’t let you get into a deep sleep again the way the 10 minute snooze buttons will do. How does one find a short snooze alarm clock? I don’t think I would like it because on some days, I will hit snooze for 45 minutes… I can’t imagine a short snooze! I would feel like I was hitting the button every second. I guess that’s the whole point~ not to hit it repeatedly and get your butt out of bed.

Anyway, I went to workout and then to work. I was tempted by the office ordering out today for Iriana’s. They have the best breadsticks but I have only had them once before because of an incident the night the hubby and I got married. We went there before spending the night at the Peabody… they staff was extremely rude to us both and we had a terrible experience. I’m a firm believer in you vote with your dollars and the best way to get even is not to give a business your money if you’re not satisfied with them. So, I have only had an extra breadstick that a coworker ordered once. Really good, YUM! When the menu and order list came to my desk, I eyeballed it pretty hard and as the words were coming out of my mouth to order, I said No, thanks. I just had a flash of working out hard this morning so I didn’t want to waste all that effort of getting out of bed pre-dawn by eating bad and it just wouldn’t have been worth the money.

Instead, I had a delicious Progresso Southwest veggie soup with herbed, high fiber crackers. I’m typing this full and satisfied right now and so thankful that I didn’t order lunch! Yeah for me!!!

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